Isaac, our biological four year old, has no problem trusting. He will jump from the top of the steps and never worries an ounce that I will catch him. So far, we are batting 1.000. I’m getting to the point I cringe every time he jumps. He doesn’t know how much heavier he is and how old and frageelay (it’s a French word) his daddy is! But he trusts. Without hesitation. With utter abandon. He is absolutely certain I will catch him and not let him fall. I never have before, so why start now?
I wish I was a four year old again.
But I’m not. I’m 36 and I’m trying to trust my Heavenly Father the way Isaac trusts his earthly father. Can you imagine how much different your life might be (assuming you have faith in God) if you could just simply trust him completely? With everything? Even flying leaps into the utter unknown without any kind of safety net? I think that’s exactly what Amy and I are trying to do with every part of our life.
You may not know it, but since June, when all of this adoption stuff began to form, all kinds of things began to break loose in awesomeness at our church at the same time. God has been busy in our lives and we don’t know how all of this is going to play out! I’m watching and trusting God for bigger things than I’ve ever had to before. That’s a scary place for a 36 year old to be……but a four year old….he just jumps!
We LOVE Steven Curtis Chapman. I loved his stuff in high school and have begun to rediscover him through my daughter, who may have a little crush on him (she knows his birthday and the names/ages of his kids!). We’ve been listening a lot, and by a lot, I mean A LOT to his most recent album entitled “The Glorious Unfolding.” It’s a great album and has really hit home during this wonderful season of God-moments. In one song, the lyrics rehearse, “We walk by faith and not by sight, we know it’s true….we say it and sing it and love the way it sounds. But none of us can even begin to truly understand what it really means until the lights go out. And there you are….nothing to hold on to….but the promises God’s made to me and you.”
The encouragement we have felt from those words is enormous as we TRUST God while traversing the unknown. It’s like we’re taking that flying leap off the stairs into the arms of Father God trusting He will catch us every time. I think this is what Jesus meant when He said we had to have faith (or trust, if you will) like a little child.
Faith like a child.
Faith like Isaac.
Faith to jump off the stairs with confidence you’ll be caught before you slam into the floor.
Faith to adopt a group of kids from Poland, nearly doubling the size of your family.
Faith God will somehow bring in $40,000 to pay for everything.
Faith our biological kids will embrace their new siblings and we’ll become one GIANT happy family.
Faith our Father is covering every detail and nuance of this whole process.
I can almost see Him standing at the bottom of the stairs as we take up our jumping positions. Arms outstretched. His gentle voice whispering to just trust Him….with Him….I can fly!
Are you ready to leap?